phew..
cant describe how i fell rite now. kinda ting~tong~...
why?
hurm......... *sigh*
so many things now running in my head, one by one unstoppable since last nite. x tau ape yg duk serabut sgt. sampaikan tido x lena, tido pon asik terjaga² sbb mimpi yg mcm², many of them are bad dreams..
:(
rase stress sgt n depressed. boss kat tempat keje yg sgt x best. anak² yg x sihat lg, bru je baik demam, kena plak sakit mata yg merah bengkak tu. dah la emosi dorg x stabil, asik down and sedih manjang. diri sendiri lg yang x keruan mcm gini.. x suke lah rase yg mcm gini.. skrg kat opis, x de mood nak wat keje.
lucky got my hubby home now. ade la yg kasi tenang sikit, pujuk² sikit.. :) teringat je kat hubby rase nak senyum plak.. smlm dia masak nasik goreng konon nak kasi aku hilang stress.. hehe.. ok la, walaupun x sedap, tp cukup tuk buat aku rase happy n ceria kejab..
tp lepas dia lena smlm, aku plak gelisah x leh nak tido. dah tengah mlm kot bru terlelap. tu pon asik terjaga je sepanjang mlm. restless..
pagi ni bangun kelam kabut skit, terlewat. whatta nice start kan... huhu..
shuhhh pergi jauh segala serabut serabai... shuhhhhh...
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
New Job - Part 2
ok. skrg da nak masuk 3 weeks aku keje. company yg aku keje ni located kat Paka, Dungun ni je. about 15-20 minutes driving from home. oil and gas company, byk wat job scaffold around Kerteh Plant, also around Melaka, Port Dickson, Johor. but ofis kat Paka ni dia punya HQ ar, kat lain2 tempat klu ade pon site-office je la.
biar dulu la stori pasal ofis, let's talk about my daily routine..
ofkos, lepas keje ni my daily routines have changed completely. i starts my day at 6.20am. klu larat aku bangun kul6. tp normally even da kunci jam kul6 aku akan snooze jam tu smp la 6.20am.. hehe.. x larat ah! syg tido.. :P klu dulu bgun tido ikut suke je la, klu bangun subuh sure sambung tido balik lepas tu. lepas Aina start skolah, aku bangun kul7, kadang2 terlajak smp 7.30am. tp sure kelam kabut dan lewat ar sbb Aina masuk skolah kul8. haha.. sesuke ati jek :P
lepas setel diri sendiri bru kejutkan Aina, mandikan dan siapkan dia. kul7.15am bertolak ar dr umah. kdg² anak² order breakfast, so singgah la minum and breakfast dulu. tp biasenye dorg x selera nak mkn heavy² so singgah bli susu n roti je la tuk dorg.
skolah aina n taska dorg dekat² je, bersebelahan. sampai sane aku hantar aina dulu. ble nak letak Adya taska, masuk la bab emotional tuk aku. Adya akan nangis, sedih, merayu² kat aku. hadoihhh.. x tau nak ckp hape ar... aku mmg akan jd extremely depressed and sad ble adik start nangis mcm tu. 1st day kat taska lepas bi keje aritu, mmg emotional betol aku. melalak aku dlm kete lepas hantar dia kat taska. worse is when bi is not around, x tau nak call sape nak mengadu sedih. nak call kang takut nmpk fragile n lemah plak. i got to stand strong, for the sake of my kids. klu aku sedih, lemah cane dorg nak strong kan..?
so ne la pujuk diri sendiri. then bru leh pujuk adik elok². kadang terpaksa la janjikan rasuah, ibu balik keje nnt ibu belikan eskrim la, coklat la, etc. huhu.. ble dia nangis, aku kat opis mesti menghitung minit dan jam tunggu kul5. tp ble dia x nangis, ok je time hantar kat taska tu, aku kat opis mesti rilek je. buat keje pon tenang je, xde nak tgk2 sgt jam kat dinding tu.. hehe.. betapa keadaan dia memberi effect kat aku kan... sabo je lah.. :P
ble jam da tunjuk kul4.30 bru la terkinja² aku nak balik. mesti rase x sabar². haha.. tepat je jam kul5 terus punch, terus kunci opis, terus keluar. terus gi ambik anak², pelok², cium²... rindu sgt.. hehehhehehahahha.. i dont care whether it's pathetic or not, that's how i feel.. :P
balik umah, da lewat. lepak² la kat luar umah dulu. siram² pokok skit, sapu daun² kering, lepak2 dgn jiran ke kejab. maghrib bru masuk dlm umah. sapu² dlm umah plak, kemas² skit, pahtu settlekan urusan time maghrib plak, mandi, solat... lepas isya', setel beg taska anak², school bag aina. kul9 - 9.30pm rehat ar kejab, tgk tv ke. kadang² stay up smp kul10pm. tp biasenye aku tido terus lepas setel semua hal. mau x mau, ne tido awal, klu x, pagi esok mesti liat gile babun nak bangun tido.. huhu
haha.. mcm robot kan. but i guess everybody got a similar routine like me. cume aku ni terlebih ngade gi post kat blog. hehe..
tunggu for part 3 plok.. cerita yg tak best pasal tempat keje... owhhh! boring!
biar dulu la stori pasal ofis, let's talk about my daily routine..
ofkos, lepas keje ni my daily routines have changed completely. i starts my day at 6.20am. klu larat aku bangun kul6. tp normally even da kunci jam kul6 aku akan snooze jam tu smp la 6.20am.. hehe.. x larat ah! syg tido.. :P klu dulu bgun tido ikut suke je la, klu bangun subuh sure sambung tido balik lepas tu. lepas Aina start skolah, aku bangun kul7, kadang2 terlajak smp 7.30am. tp sure kelam kabut dan lewat ar sbb Aina masuk skolah kul8. haha.. sesuke ati jek :P
lepas setel diri sendiri bru kejutkan Aina, mandikan dan siapkan dia. kul7.15am bertolak ar dr umah. kdg² anak² order breakfast, so singgah la minum and breakfast dulu. tp biasenye dorg x selera nak mkn heavy² so singgah bli susu n roti je la tuk dorg.
skolah aina n taska dorg dekat² je, bersebelahan. sampai sane aku hantar aina dulu. ble nak letak Adya taska, masuk la bab emotional tuk aku. Adya akan nangis, sedih, merayu² kat aku. hadoihhh.. x tau nak ckp hape ar... aku mmg akan jd extremely depressed and sad ble adik start nangis mcm tu. 1st day kat taska lepas bi keje aritu, mmg emotional betol aku. melalak aku dlm kete lepas hantar dia kat taska. worse is when bi is not around, x tau nak call sape nak mengadu sedih. nak call kang takut nmpk fragile n lemah plak. i got to stand strong, for the sake of my kids. klu aku sedih, lemah cane dorg nak strong kan..?
so ne la pujuk diri sendiri. then bru leh pujuk adik elok². kadang terpaksa la janjikan rasuah, ibu balik keje nnt ibu belikan eskrim la, coklat la, etc. huhu.. ble dia nangis, aku kat opis mesti menghitung minit dan jam tunggu kul5. tp ble dia x nangis, ok je time hantar kat taska tu, aku kat opis mesti rilek je. buat keje pon tenang je, xde nak tgk2 sgt jam kat dinding tu.. hehe.. betapa keadaan dia memberi effect kat aku kan... sabo je lah.. :P
ble jam da tunjuk kul4.30 bru la terkinja² aku nak balik. mesti rase x sabar². haha.. tepat je jam kul5 terus punch, terus kunci opis, terus keluar. terus gi ambik anak², pelok², cium²... rindu sgt.. hehehhehehahahha.. i dont care whether it's pathetic or not, that's how i feel.. :P
balik umah, da lewat. lepak² la kat luar umah dulu. siram² pokok skit, sapu daun² kering, lepak2 dgn jiran ke kejab. maghrib bru masuk dlm umah. sapu² dlm umah plak, kemas² skit, pahtu settlekan urusan time maghrib plak, mandi, solat... lepas isya', setel beg taska anak², school bag aina. kul9 - 9.30pm rehat ar kejab, tgk tv ke. kadang² stay up smp kul10pm. tp biasenye aku tido terus lepas setel semua hal. mau x mau, ne tido awal, klu x, pagi esok mesti liat gile babun nak bangun tido.. huhu
haha.. mcm robot kan. but i guess everybody got a similar routine like me. cume aku ni terlebih ngade gi post kat blog. hehe..
tunggu for part 3 plok.. cerita yg tak best pasal tempat keje... owhhh! boring!
Thursday, July 14, 2011
New Job - Part 1
lame betul x update. haha. x tau nak cakap ape ah. :P
ok. this few months ade la beberapa perkara major yg berlaku dlm idup aku. hopefully ade la mase lepas ni nak update selalu.
why?
because, now I AM A WORKING MOMMY!
yesss.. that is.. aku start keje awal bulan july. so skrg ni belum pon cukup sebulan start keje. a big changes sbb da lama sangat aku memeramkan diri kat umah. sesuatu yg bukan senang tuk aku sesuaikan diri. i resigned from my last job on March 2007, means dah 4 tahun x keje! sgt lama...
dan saat pertukaran dr saat jd housewife to working mommy tu sgt drastik. kul1 ptg kawan called suruh dtg interview, kul3 ptg gi interview, kul7 ptg ofis called suruh masuk keje, the next morning, aku tercengang² kat ofis. so i was in a big-shock mode for quite some time, otak jd blur², emo jd x stabil, a bit down jugak la.
byk mende yg berlegar2 dlm otak mase tu. anak, hubby, rumah, keje baru, diri sendiri, cemane nak handle semua mende so x kelam kabut? uhhh.. paling merundum perasaan aku bile pikirkan anak², especially my youngest. kakak da biase skit sbb dia da start skolah awal thn ni. yg adik tu x pernah jauh dgn ibu, so dia sgt shock dan sgt down pada mulanya. situasi itu sgt² memberi kesan mendalam kat aku. rase bersalah, sedih, nak nangis jek time kat opis ble igt kat anak².
thankfully, the 1st week aku kat tempat keje bi ade lg kat rumah. so dia byk tolong cover la. klu time tu dia x de x tau la cane, mau aku reject job offer ni sbb x sempat nak handle semua. 2nd week sebelum bi gi keje everything da settled down, taska anak, transport, etc, aku da bleh manage sendiri dah. cuma emotionally je la kureng skit sbb bi da gi keje so my mental support da xde kat umah.. mlm² ble bi call bg brainwash, motivate, bru la rase ok.. thanx bi.. :)
tho, i was thankful for everything. moga ada la hikmah disebalik semuanya. moga diberkati dan dipermudahkan segala urusan. thanks to my bi hubby booo :P who always been there when i needed him the most. my lovey doters, Aina and Adya that i love with all my heart. my family, my cik, siblings. to my friend who helped me, Mama Iza. and especially to Allah. Alhamdulillah. even everything was so hard and emotional for me, i dont feel alone. i got everybody i needed. :)
ok. this few months ade la beberapa perkara major yg berlaku dlm idup aku. hopefully ade la mase lepas ni nak update selalu.
why?
because, now I AM A WORKING MOMMY!
yesss.. that is.. aku start keje awal bulan july. so skrg ni belum pon cukup sebulan start keje. a big changes sbb da lama sangat aku memeramkan diri kat umah. sesuatu yg bukan senang tuk aku sesuaikan diri. i resigned from my last job on March 2007, means dah 4 tahun x keje! sgt lama...
dan saat pertukaran dr saat jd housewife to working mommy tu sgt drastik. kul1 ptg kawan called suruh dtg interview, kul3 ptg gi interview, kul7 ptg ofis called suruh masuk keje, the next morning, aku tercengang² kat ofis. so i was in a big-shock mode for quite some time, otak jd blur², emo jd x stabil, a bit down jugak la.
byk mende yg berlegar2 dlm otak mase tu. anak, hubby, rumah, keje baru, diri sendiri, cemane nak handle semua mende so x kelam kabut? uhhh.. paling merundum perasaan aku bile pikirkan anak², especially my youngest. kakak da biase skit sbb dia da start skolah awal thn ni. yg adik tu x pernah jauh dgn ibu, so dia sgt shock dan sgt down pada mulanya. situasi itu sgt² memberi kesan mendalam kat aku. rase bersalah, sedih, nak nangis jek time kat opis ble igt kat anak².
thankfully, the 1st week aku kat tempat keje bi ade lg kat rumah. so dia byk tolong cover la. klu time tu dia x de x tau la cane, mau aku reject job offer ni sbb x sempat nak handle semua. 2nd week sebelum bi gi keje everything da settled down, taska anak, transport, etc, aku da bleh manage sendiri dah. cuma emotionally je la kureng skit sbb bi da gi keje so my mental support da xde kat umah.. mlm² ble bi call bg brainwash, motivate, bru la rase ok.. thanx bi.. :)
tho, i was thankful for everything. moga ada la hikmah disebalik semuanya. moga diberkati dan dipermudahkan segala urusan. thanks to my bi hubby booo :P who always been there when i needed him the most. my lovey doters, Aina and Adya that i love with all my heart. my family, my cik, siblings. to my friend who helped me, Mama Iza. and especially to Allah. Alhamdulillah. even everything was so hard and emotional for me, i dont feel alone. i got everybody i needed. :)
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