Thursday, July 14, 2011

New Job - Part 1

lame betul x update. haha. x tau nak cakap ape ah. :P

ok. this few months ade la beberapa perkara major yg berlaku dlm idup aku. hopefully ade la mase lepas ni nak update selalu.

why?

because, now I AM A WORKING MOMMY!

yesss.. that is.. aku start keje awal bulan july. so skrg ni belum pon cukup sebulan start keje. a big changes sbb da lama sangat aku memeramkan diri kat umah. sesuatu yg bukan senang tuk aku sesuaikan diri. i resigned from my last job on March 2007, means dah 4 tahun x keje! sgt lama...

dan saat pertukaran dr saat jd housewife to working mommy tu sgt drastik. kul1 ptg kawan called suruh dtg interview, kul3 ptg gi interview, kul7 ptg ofis called suruh masuk keje, the next morning, aku tercengang² kat ofis. so i was in a big-shock mode for quite some time, otak jd blur², emo jd x stabil, a bit down jugak la.

byk mende yg berlegar2 dlm otak mase tu. anak, hubby, rumah, keje baru, diri sendiri, cemane nak handle semua mende so x kelam kabut? uhhh.. paling merundum perasaan aku bile pikirkan anak², especially my youngest. kakak da biase skit sbb dia da start skolah awal thn ni. yg adik tu x pernah jauh dgn ibu, so dia sgt shock dan sgt down pada mulanya. situasi itu sgt² memberi kesan mendalam kat aku. rase bersalah, sedih, nak nangis jek time kat opis ble igt kat anak².

thankfully, the 1st week aku kat tempat keje bi ade lg kat rumah. so dia byk tolong cover la. klu time tu dia x de x tau la cane, mau aku reject job offer ni sbb x sempat nak handle semua. 2nd week sebelum bi gi keje everything da settled down, taska anak, transport, etc, aku da bleh manage sendiri dah. cuma emotionally je la kureng skit sbb bi da gi keje so my mental support da xde kat umah.. mlm² ble bi call bg brainwash, motivate, bru la rase ok.. thanx bi.. :)

tho, i was thankful for everything. moga ada la hikmah disebalik semuanya. moga diberkati dan dipermudahkan segala urusan. thanks to my bi hubby booo :P who always been there when i needed him the most. my lovey doters, Aina and Adya that i love with all my heart. my family, my cik, siblings. to my friend who helped me, Mama Iza. and especially to Allah. Alhamdulillah. even everything was so hard and emotional for me, i dont feel alone. i got everybody i needed. :)

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